Oyama shrine

I remember this place with fond memories, this is a small shrine on the top of Oyama in Nagano.
Photo: Noriko Takano

back in Kingston Revised. I said some pritty shitty things.

Well I am back in Kingston.

So, just what the hell am I doing here?... Well I guess I am getting my feet on the ground, contemplating my future and trying to see if I can stand on solid ground at home as well as I can over seas. I know why I left and why so many of my counterparts left, but I am really unsure of why I came back. Kingston is a comfortable town, a nice place to build a nest and indulge in the realities of T.V. drama. (cringe). I don't think I fit in here, and perhaps, I don't really fit in anywhere.

So what am I doing here? Well I think Teacher’s College is a good idea. I am also trying to get my U.K. citizenship then so as to work in the E.U. (maybe) I do think I will stay in Ontario if I do teacher’s college, but I will not stay around here. Rather Kingston is a means to an end. However, that being said Teacher's College in New Zealand really appeals to me. Ah... New Zealand, a country that invented Bungee Jumping and other crazy outdoor activities, I don’t know very much about New Zealand at this time but I would say based on what I do know it has a small population of people who believe in {Carpe Diem! } (Seizing the Day!) {Going Big or Going Home}

It is so strange, in Japan I was full of energy, always on the go, doing this that and everything else. I had two jobs at the same time at one point, I was climbing mountains, hiking and never wanted to sit around and rot. I want to die knowing that I lived, that I breathed every moment with passion, vigour and honour, not watching each moment of my life slip away behind the glaze of tedium or in the escape of mind alterents. I am no angel my self though, yes I have smoked the occasional joint and enjoyed getting drunk with friends after work and I was even a little chubby for a few years. However it has never been focal point of my life. My life has been the focal point of my life.

A quote: “This is your life and it is ending one moment at a time.” (Tyler Durden, Fight Club, movie)